Things are going pretty smooth with the exceptions of the millions of thoughts running through my mind

I went to the FCI  last Thursday the 9th , it was  4 weeks  past my intervention surgery. As I have said before we expected the  head lung ratio to go down and it did. The ratio went from a 2.8 to a 2.1 not sure yet what the  lung volume is  yet ( Before the  surgery it was only 12%).  This is the 1st Thursday  since we found out the diagnosis  that we have not had an appointment, I must say I would rather have the appointment so I know what  is going on. Next week we go back and we are hoping that the  ratio  goes up a lil bit more and  that he  weighs close to at least 4 lbs** Keeping my  fingers crossed**
I had a regular prenatal appointment on Tuesday and  everything looks  good. She was happy to see that I gained 3 lbs so that brings me to a total of 8 lbs :) I am measuring at 32 weeks  but I was only 30 at the  time but she said I have been measuring 2 weeks ahead of time so it is nothing to worry about.
 I  find it crazy that tomorrow I will be 31 weeks it is all coming to fast. In one way I am excited to get him here  but on the other hand with the odds stacked against us I would rather him  stay in there for another 30 weeks. Even with all the  complications I have had I have loved being pregnant. Those lil kicks that I get from him  just  melt my heart I cant help but  love them, even the  rib shots  <3
I had a conversation with my  husband the other day  that I never would have though I would need to have  before I even see my baby. What are we gonna  do if  the worst  thing happens.... It is something that I know I need to kinda think about  b/c if anything happens I wont be in the right state of mind to think of anything  but I feel like if I even think about it  than I am giving up hope and hope is all I have.
Everyday that  passes I get more and more scared for what  he is going to have to go through and the road we are about to go down.
**For now we pray that 
-He stays put safe and sound right where he is at until the Dr's say it is ok for him to come( min of 43 days)
-Continue lung growth  and  volume
-NO ECMO when he does come
Thank you for everyone who is  reading this and the  continue prayers that  we are getting, I wish I could thank each and everyone of you.