It feels so weird to say and know that in 12 short days I will have a precious lil boy! I have waited for that day for so long, since before I was even married. I always imagined what it would be like to be pregnant and then become a mom, never did I imagine it like this. Even with everything my husband and I have been through I am not angry with what is going on with Parker anymore. I know he is a fighter and I pray that he still has that fight left in him to show the world that he isnt going anywhere. It seems like everyday as the delivery gets closer I get so many thoughts going through my head. The "What if's" or the "Hopefully this" consume my thoughts. So many people tell me " Julia, it will all work out and things are going to be fine" and as much as I want to believe them and I really do try to tell myself that but I know the truth... No one knows what is gonna happen on that day and the weeks following his birth. My hope is that he comes out stronger than what they anticipate. They know he has a left lung but they cant be sure how much is there b/c of his other organs blocking it. I just pray that he surpasses everyone's expectations, but like I said no one knows what will happen.
I want so bad to have my baby shower and get the room ready and be excited about everything, but then reality sits in and I know I shouldn't do it just yet.
I have my last dr appointment with the Fetal Care this week then Delivery will be next. It is weird to know that after almost 4 months going their just about every week I wont be anymore. I will update with more news of what they have to say later this week... Sorry this blog is all over the place I just have so many thoughts going through my mind and this seemed to be the best place to put them....
FOR THE NEXT 12 DAYS PLEASE PRAY THAT PARKER
* Stays right where is he until it is his time to come out
* The Dr's have good news on Thursday
* NO ECMO the day of and anytime there after he is born
Thanks again to all of you out there that are praying <3